You think I’m trying to hold you back but I’m not. I want you to see the world, I want you to meet new people and have different experiences. I want you to enter each relationship with the hopes that it could be your last. I ask that you exhaust every possibility, that you run the course multiple times with every person you are serious with. I never want you to give up because you know you have me waiting. I need you to know that I am the right person for you, because I believe I am, we are just not right for each other right now. Try every way, I will still be here. This is not the end, this is something that exceeds that by far, this is entering the unknown to see if something can be discovered, to look for what can be known, and then seeing if you can still find your way back to me, if we can still find our way back to us. I believe us will never really go away, I believe us was as real as it can get. Be every person that you need to be before you settle into the man I know you are, the man that I love. Never look back and resent me as being the girl that has loved you since you were 18, that’s not what I want. I want you to love the fact that I have been in love with every version of you since high school. I want you to be proud of the fact that even though we’ve both changed, my love for you has not. You will always be the one thing I am sure of, the one person who manages to bring me home. You are the person I will wait for, the person I will go to the end of the earth and back for. Find someone who is going to love you more than I do, and when you think you have, look closer, because no one will have a love stronger for you than me. I will always love you and I will always miss you.
Eating disorder awareness week. Never feel like you’re alone, recovery is possible. Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect.